Today was the first Easter ever that I didn't go to church....and I'm not sure how I feel about it. We've been to FBC of The Woodlands (FBCTW) quite a few times now but never have I gone without Levi. For those of you who don't really know me, I don't do well in social situations by myself; I get very anxious. Well Levi had to work today and our usual church buddies, The Gefferts, were out of town. Could I still have gone by myself...of course! But did I, no. My question is then Why does it bother me so much? Is it the fact that it was Easter? Well why is Easter any different than any other Sunday for going to church? Don't get me wrong I completely understand and respect the significance of this day but shouldn't we celebrate that every Sunday (every day really). Or is this whole day upset by the fact that I feel like I can't do things by myself with out freaking out. I hate change, going new places, having new experiences -- IF, I'm alone. If Levi's with me I feel like I can do anything. I have a huge fear of the unknown. If I do something new or go somewhere new I want to know EXACTLY what is going to happen and how. Hmmmm......as I sit here I'm thinking that "getting this all out" is not really helping, but making myself feel worse so I'll stop. This us a yucky post....sorry.
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1 comments:
Hi Dana! I'm so glad I checked out your bulletin. I wasn't sure what you had finally given in to doing! :) Anyway, I feel the same way when it comes to social situations. It's always kind of nerve-wrecking to be alone. Especially when, as you said, there are unknowns. So don't feel too bad. I'm sure there are lots more people who feel that way than you would think!
Happy Easter!
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