Bonus Post :)

Well today has been a different kind of day.  I have a lot of different thoughts going through my head about a lot of different things.  The Bradford Family lost a very well respected co-worker last week and today was her service.  I really didn't get a chance to work closely with her but I knew enough about her to know that she loved and fought for her students.  As cliche as it sounds she will truly be missed by all who knew her.  So here I am standing in the cemetery listening to what a life this woman (who has 2 daughters) lived as I'm feeling my own little lady flip around in my belly wondering if and praying that Levi and I have what it takes to raise her to be the kind of person that people will one day speak just as wonderfully about.  All of this leads me to think about being the kind of mom that has the strength to see her baby hooked up to all sorts of machines and in some cases having to leave that baby in the hospital to go home without him.  This has been happening all to often as of late and it takes a special and strong woman to be able to do that.  Not that we have any indication that this could/would happen to me but I'm just not sure I could do it.  Maybe it's some sort of motherhood bond or something, I don't know but I just really feel for these women.  Then of course, all of THIS leads me to thinking about what it takes to actually be that kind of woman- the character and integrity it takes.  I don't feel that lately I've had this type of character.  I feel like I've been very cranky, a gossiper, and even rude.  As the new school year starts I am going to try really hard to keep my attitude positive and my comments to myself.  (And yes, I'm expecting you co-workers to hold me to this- that's why I'm saying it "out loud").  Well this is all getting a bit heavy (and I have not even gotten to the fact that I got back to school in 3 weeks) so I'll leave you with this...I have recently found out about 2 other fellow mommies-to-be and that just makes me happy.  There are going to be lots of babies around Lydia's age and while some of them are FAR too far away, I hope she can make some life-long, well rounded, good friends.